steven

i dreamt about steven my late dog last night
it was so real, and i KNEW it was HIM
and i was hugging him and patting him

sorta realised halfway thru my dream that i had to be dreaming,

cos i knew he'd died already

but he obviously hasn't died in my heart...

that's why he came to see me last night

:*)

The big sea

i've had this dream quite a number of times before
and it always turns out the same
it's something of an adventure
with scenes that pique my curiosity
and swell my heart with excitement and wonder

i dream of the sea
and the sea is wide, the beach is long and spreads out far far far
there are a lot of people on the beach
and i make my way down the steep incline to find a spot

there is a high wall at the start of the beach
it runs along the shore line

as i try to make my way to the beach...
the earth's gravity shifts
suddenly, i'm almost toppling and falling towards the mouth of the giant waves coming

it's almost dusk and the waves get bigger towards dusk
huge massive beautiful shimmering waves that eat surfers and sometimes drown inattentive sunbathers

the waves are dangerous
but such a magnificent sight that people try to get good looks at them without being washed away
i see the waters lap near to me
the high wall is now blocking the waves from getting to where is stand
but i can see how intensely deep the waves are
sometimes i see the colours of people's clothes on their bodies swimming in the waves, trying to get out

i don't swim cos i'm afraid of drowning
i want to be in it
yet... i don't go in.

better feverish dreams

it was WONDERFUL
i was on some tour and looked out a high window, and saw amidst snow and ice,
a MAGNIFICENT SHINY BLUE WHALE leaping in the ocean!

it was truly a marvelous spectacle
and i was thinking how oh-so-lucky i was to ACTUALLY SEE IT
right in front of me!
all glimmering and shiny and prussian blue!

then i went flying over a place very distinctly called Hampshire
but it looked like New Zealand
and i was flying by myself (magically la y'know) and saw cracks in the earth
and it was pretty awesome

feverish dream

you know how dreams are worse when a fever is in progress...

i had this weird tiring adventure dream of being in a protest cum party,
as if there's such a thing...
where scores of ppl and friends were on the streets at night,
i was drunk + high and kinda got lost here and there,
like the dream itself was hazy and in pieces
just like how my memory is on a crazy night out -_-

i was with clem in a car
and i freaking lost the car...
walked all over these dark scary neighbourhoods to try to find him
and worried that he couldn't drive home cos i had the car keys (duh)

anyway not a very intersting dream
just the situation of losing him and me getting lost and the dark (i hate the dark...)

i was dying

i had a vivid dream that i was dying
someone cracked open my skull and half my brains fell out
the other half were in my hands
and i ran around trying to find someone who would just HELP put me back together.

as i ran about, i could feel the strength in me seeping.
like i had less time.

and i started vomiting blood.
not gag-vomit,
but the blood was just flowing easily out of my mouth and i had to open to let it pass.
i could feel the amount of blood coming out...
and the taste of it.

then i woke up and thought,
goddamn clem for waking me up when he was tipsy and i got grouchy and SEE what kind of dream it gave me!

i swear i would have had a nicer dream if i wasn't awoken halfway throughout the night.

spm

i had the most HORRIBLE dream that i was sitting for my SPM (Again! As if once wasn't enough!)
People were throwing thick textbooks at me,
saying that i HAD TO STUDY
THAT I HAD TO PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS
THAT IF I DIDN'T,
i'll FAIL AT LIFE.

Horrible!
And completely untrue.

Nobody told us in school that if you sucked in your studies,
you could find your true passions after school and excel at them.
Not to mention the subjects that are forced upon us aren't necessarily our interests in the slightest.

Bah.
I woke up thinking OHMY GOD
I'm SO GLAD i'm an adult!
And that any work i do will translate into money i can spend!
Instead of a stupid A written on a piece of paper and a pat on the head.

Point of the dream is = being forced to do something you hate is most terrifying.
Even worse if there's no reward at the end of it.

The end.

3 million dollars

i dreamt that clem and i had 3 million dollars
and i tried to hide it in a mayonnaise jar so that noone else would ever find it.
was so happy thinking we don't have to worry about money for the rest of our lives!

then i woke up and was like dammit we're poor