of sleeping with him

i dreamt that i was being held
in a beautiful way
non-sexual, as i had all my clothes on

my hands clasped in his
his head next to mine
the curve of his body cradling mine naturally
his legs intertwined with mine

i was so happy
at peace somehow
like i could feel the love just buzzing around us like a soft hum

then i woke up...

and it was happening.

activities + school

i had to head a play
organize people
get them together
direct it

i also had to coordinate the cheerleading team
choreograph direct dance

so many things to do!

people rushing me to do it on time

parents asking me to ensure my grades were still the same

it was quite stressful
i remember feeling like SHIT SO MUCH TO DO BUT I CAN DO ITTTTT

then i woke up halfway
and thought "OH THANK GOD school was out. like 10 years ago"
and went back to Zzzzzz

woke up proper later and lay in bed
"damn. i'm so lucky i don't have to go through that stress anymore!"